You have to stop caring!

So this is another-cheesy-post that I might laugh at, someday. 

I'm a sort of person who always quote every single words which are said by anyone else. Especially when it comes to particular person who are emotionally and regularly close to me. I notice every single thing. I often try to see through people, either. This is occasionally good, but sometimes it becomes heavier than ever. Because you know, I make my own pressure by the thoughts that I build on my own. The pressure that is meant to get me high up, but this one is making me fall into the pieces instead.

That feeling when you realize that what you thought was something, is actually nothing at all. That feeling when you realize that you are no longer a thing (or maybe you just have never been any thing). I don't blame you because I know I have no right to. You choose the way you joke around, the way you treat people, the way you look at things, the way you talk, etc. This is all mine. I know that it was all my fault. But most of the times, I think that we shouldn't have met. A ridiculous thought that I keep thinking over and over again eventhough I know it is ridiculous. Hell yeah

If only you knew, you've opened up my eyes a bit wider than it was. You influenced me, and sometimes I feel like i'm 'living' yourself in. I don't mind because you are admirable. And now as the days goes by, I wish I could turn back the time when I don't even know your name.

So, dear self, you have to stop caring about the things that you know is beyond your authority. I'm sick of seeing you think way too much. You can't expect people to treat you-nor anyone-the way you want to.