House by the sea

i often get lost anytime i browse indie band videos on youtube. There are so many kind of indie music which are hidden and it's our job to look for them. Well, it's all about how deep you can 'swim'. Actually i'm not a good swimer and i don't wish to be the one. But for this one, i'm gonna swim as deep as i could to get things which are worth-listening-to in the end.

A few weeks ago, i randomly found this one out. Just like how you fall in love; you listen to it for the first time, you get attracted, then you look up for its details. Who the song is written by? What the title is? What the band is named? and when it has been downloaded, you keep listening to that song over and over again until you get sick of it. Hell yeah !

So, i fall in love with House of the sea by Moddi. I get attracted, and this is what i've been listening to lately..

They say home is the place where your heart is
Then I am home now though I am far away
For so long I've let deep forests guard it
And now it's begging me to stay

And I'm trying my best to be tough
To pretend I am strong and can siphon it off
But I'm not who I wanted to be
In my heart I belong in a house by the sea

They say home is a place where you're needed
Then I am home now but I am leaving
To feel my feet being kissed by the seaweed
And I'll be silent and kiss it back

This is not who I want you to see

It's just adding on weight to the darkness in me  
And from the little I have understood
I believe that a house by the sea would do good

They say home is a place you can choose to be
And I've decided to carry home inside me
So it's not really as if I am leaving
It's more like something pulling me

'Cause behind everything that I do
I just want to forget, want to carry this through
Fill my lungs with the sweet summer air
In my heart in my mind I am already there

Yeah behind everything that I do
I just want to come home and lay down beside you
And then I'll be who I wanted to be
In my heart I belong in a house by the sea

I can never stand any song which has such a good lyric like the one above. As a thoughtful person, i always think about something anytime i hear certain songs. It kinda stimulates me. Just like the moments where i was in. I might seem don't care, but there's always something left inside my brain.

The first lyric of the song above got me hypnotized. 'They say home is the place where your heart is'
I once wrote a note about home, too. I said, 'Each of us already have our own home that no matter how far we go, that home is where we will come back to eventually' we are never really leaving, because there's always something that pulling us in. Something which is hard to explain. Maybe because we have got used to it, so we always feel like something is missing anytime we are far away.

'..and behind everything that i do, i just want to come home and lay down beside you. and then i'll be who i wanted to be...'

yeah i know how it feels.. when your body is working on something but your mind secretly wishing for something else. You do things, while your heart prays.

Nobody ever knows what is inside our mind. There's always something that i pray for, behind everything, every single thing that i do, yet things that i work on..