this should have been a late night talk.

Hi, everyone.
I don't know exactly what I want to talk about, but here I am writing.
Actually i'm doing my tasks right now, but this such-a-good-connection is quiet tempting, so let me forget about these papers that scattered around me- just for a little while.

Okay, I want to ask you, (whoever reading this) have you ever felt bad- that you actually have no idea what are you feeling bad about?

Well, I have, quiet often-and that sucks.

'There is always, always, always something to be thankful for.'

Yeah, I know. I once heard that quote and I really really really couldn't agree more. Most of the times, I think that it's just myself who always seem to over-thinking. I consciously realize that's where these-bad-feelings are coming from. That's why I become sad. It darkens my day, for sure. So that I can't see clearly- I feel lonely at all.

There's always time when I feel like i'm forgotten.
There's always time when I feel like i'm ignored.
There's always time when I feel like I don't belong anywhere.
Even when i'm forcing myself to remember all the good times that already transformed into something called memories.

I feel like i'm losing something i've never had.

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You know,

This life has always been worth living for. Every time I feel like this life is purposeless, I set my mind back again to the first place where I think 'Every single thing depends on how we see through it'. If I think this life is beautiful, then it surely is.

By the bad times i've passed through, I know the only thing I ought to do to deal with the reality is enjoy all the feelings that come over. When i'm starting to feel bad again, I only have to realize that things change, constantly. I'm not going to be miserable for my life-time.

Everytime you feel lonely, just enjoy the loneliness.

We need to be angry.
We need to feel sad.
We need to be alone.

Those sucks things are needed. It shows that we are still alive. It makes us human.