talk things through.

This life has always been offering me another lesson to learn. By 19 years that I've passed through (and still counting) I know that my mind will always be working depends on what I'm seeing, yet what I'm listening to. I always feel like those life-lessons changes something in me. It changes the way I react to things, also the perspectives of mine. Well, I believe that we all have that 'standart point' that no matter how we seem to change (either it is for better or bitter), we will reach that point back in return. I got another-lesson-learned by yesterday. I realize that it changes the way I react to things. Maybe for a long while. I don't know.

I wrote something about it, right after that lesson popped into my mind.

"I have learned that if you're being too nice to people, they tend to make fun out of you'

I wrote that with large font. It almost filled the whole paper. I can't help my self not to write it down. That's all I got right in mind.

I like being nice, simply because I want to treat people the way I want to be treated. I just don't get why people think that the ones who seem happy along the way-whom they close to--- doesn't have feelings to be saved.

I once heard a quote, it said, 'nice people are the ones who is most likely to be used.' After read that quote, my mind started to work out again. For me, personally, I don't care what people gonna do after because i am being nice because i-want-to. Just don't give a damn about it. But nobody could ever stand being treated like 'you're so nice that eventhough i do bad things to you, it would still be quiet alright'

I didn't mention that I'm a nice person, because as I try to look up, I only do what I think is right.

I don't know whether I got it wrong, or right. Maybe all I need is just a little interlude. And just like what i've mentioned on the previous post,

enjoy all the feelings that come over. 

this should have been a late night talk.

Hi, everyone.
I don't know exactly what I want to talk about, but here I am writing.
Actually i'm doing my tasks right now, but this such-a-good-connection is quiet tempting, so let me forget about these papers that scattered around me- just for a little while.

Okay, I want to ask you, (whoever reading this) have you ever felt bad- that you actually have no idea what are you feeling bad about?

Well, I have, quiet often-and that sucks.

'There is always, always, always something to be thankful for.'

Yeah, I know. I once heard that quote and I really really really couldn't agree more. Most of the times, I think that it's just myself who always seem to over-thinking. I consciously realize that's where these-bad-feelings are coming from. That's why I become sad. It darkens my day, for sure. So that I can't see clearly- I feel lonely at all.

There's always time when I feel like i'm forgotten.
There's always time when I feel like i'm ignored.
There's always time when I feel like I don't belong anywhere.
Even when i'm forcing myself to remember all the good times that already transformed into something called memories.

I feel like i'm losing something i've never had.

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You know,

This life has always been worth living for. Every time I feel like this life is purposeless, I set my mind back again to the first place where I think 'Every single thing depends on how we see through it'. If I think this life is beautiful, then it surely is.

By the bad times i've passed through, I know the only thing I ought to do to deal with the reality is enjoy all the feelings that come over. When i'm starting to feel bad again, I only have to realize that things change, constantly. I'm not going to be miserable for my life-time.

Everytime you feel lonely, just enjoy the loneliness.

We need to be angry.
We need to feel sad.
We need to be alone.

Those sucks things are needed. It shows that we are still alive. It makes us human.

Saturday night cooking.

Sebagai seorang jombloers yang inovatif dan kreatif, malam minggu kali ini saya mengisi waktu dengan memasak. Diam-diam sebenarnya saya suka masak, tapi gak banyak yang tau aja. Takutnya nanti banyak yang jatuh cinta kalo tau saya bisa masak :))) kali ini saya masak nya niat banget sampe difotoin gini. Yah ala-ala food photography gitu. So, here it is.. *jengjeengjeeeng* *asikasikJOS!*

Cumi tahu krispi sambal mayo, ala Chef Anisa Shabrina queen :))

i guess it's tempting enough :))