talk things through.

This life has always been offering me another lesson to learn. By 19 years that I've passed through (and still counting) I know that my mind will always be working depends on what I'm seeing, yet what I'm listening to. I always feel like those life-lessons changes something in me. It changes the way I react to things, also the perspectives of mine. Well, I believe that we all have that 'standart point' that no matter how we seem to change (either it is for better or bitter), we will reach that point back in return. I got another-lesson-learned by yesterday. I realize that it changes the way I react to things. Maybe for a long while. I don't know.

I wrote something about it, right after that lesson popped into my mind.

"I have learned that if you're being too nice to people, they tend to make fun out of you'

I wrote that with large font. It almost filled the whole paper. I can't help my self not to write it down. That's all I got right in mind.

I like being nice, simply because I want to treat people the way I want to be treated. I just don't get why people think that the ones who seem happy along the way-whom they close to--- doesn't have feelings to be saved.

I once heard a quote, it said, 'nice people are the ones who is most likely to be used.' After read that quote, my mind started to work out again. For me, personally, I don't care what people gonna do after because i am being nice because i-want-to. Just don't give a damn about it. But nobody could ever stand being treated like 'you're so nice that eventhough i do bad things to you, it would still be quiet alright'

I didn't mention that I'm a nice person, because as I try to look up, I only do what I think is right.

I don't know whether I got it wrong, or right. Maybe all I need is just a little interlude. And just like what i've mentioned on the previous post,

enjoy all the feelings that come over. 

this should have been a late night talk.

Hi, everyone.
I don't know exactly what I want to talk about, but here I am writing.
Actually i'm doing my tasks right now, but this such-a-good-connection is quiet tempting, so let me forget about these papers that scattered around me- just for a little while.

Okay, I want to ask you, (whoever reading this) have you ever felt bad- that you actually have no idea what are you feeling bad about?

Well, I have, quiet often-and that sucks.

'There is always, always, always something to be thankful for.'

Yeah, I know. I once heard that quote and I really really really couldn't agree more. Most of the times, I think that it's just myself who always seem to over-thinking. I consciously realize that's where these-bad-feelings are coming from. That's why I become sad. It darkens my day, for sure. So that I can't see clearly- I feel lonely at all.

There's always time when I feel like i'm forgotten.
There's always time when I feel like i'm ignored.
There's always time when I feel like I don't belong anywhere.
Even when i'm forcing myself to remember all the good times that already transformed into something called memories.

I feel like i'm losing something i've never had.

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You know,

This life has always been worth living for. Every time I feel like this life is purposeless, I set my mind back again to the first place where I think 'Every single thing depends on how we see through it'. If I think this life is beautiful, then it surely is.

By the bad times i've passed through, I know the only thing I ought to do to deal with the reality is enjoy all the feelings that come over. When i'm starting to feel bad again, I only have to realize that things change, constantly. I'm not going to be miserable for my life-time.

Everytime you feel lonely, just enjoy the loneliness.

We need to be angry.
We need to feel sad.
We need to be alone.

Those sucks things are needed. It shows that we are still alive. It makes us human.

Saturday night cooking.

Sebagai seorang jombloers yang inovatif dan kreatif, malam minggu kali ini saya mengisi waktu dengan memasak. Diam-diam sebenarnya saya suka masak, tapi gak banyak yang tau aja. Takutnya nanti banyak yang jatuh cinta kalo tau saya bisa masak :))) kali ini saya masak nya niat banget sampe difotoin gini. Yah ala-ala food photography gitu. So, here it is.. *jengjeengjeeeng* *asikasikJOS!*

Cumi tahu krispi sambal mayo, ala Chef Anisa Shabrina queen :))

i guess it's tempting enough :))

Music review

There's always a good feeling after found a good song on Youtube. Yeah, saya adalah salah satu orang yang senang nyari-nyari lagu bagus di internet. Akhir-akhir ini saya bener-bener lagi k-o-s-o-n-g. Selain nyanyi-nyanyi sambil main gitar di ruang tamu dan pipis setiap lagi kebelet, hal yang sering saya habiskan untuk membunuh waktu adalah dengan browsing.

I sometimes think that I have to produce some new 'works' instead of spending most of time browsing on the internet. But it's alright. So this is a good song (one of) that I come up with :

The Paper Kites adalah salah satu band Indie favorit saya yang berasal dari Melbourne, Australia. Lagu berjudul 'Paint' adalah salah satu lagu dari band diatas yang mengisi playlist saya selain Bloom, Featherstone, Woodland, dan Arms. Their mellow music and beautiful harmonies are so calming. Kebanyakan lagu-lagu di playlist saya memang musik calming semacam itu. Orang-orang yang mendengar kebanyakan pasti langsung menilai 'pasti sering ko galau toh.' (yeah, kebanyakan!) tapi tidak, tidak pemirsa ! Mungkin emang iya sih lagu-lagu tersebut yang menguatkan perasaan biru di dalam hati. Tapi menurut saya, lagu-lagu tersebut yang justru malah membuka pikiran. It makes us feel relax. Tapi teteup, liriknya memang dalem. Gak tau deh itu lirik atau sumur.

Here's the lyric :

We were trying, but we're trying no more
It's cold on the floor, cold on the floor
This house has never been the same as before
It's never felt warm, never felt warm

There's something moving through the windows and walls

I've seen it before, seen it before

You left me living with a lingering soul,

how little you know, how little you know

We were standing at the foot of a path

I had to go back, had to go back

I chose to travel as a lonely man

So much that I lacked, so much that I lacked

I'm always wishing I was walking that road

It's something I hold, something I hold

I take it with me all the places I go

How little you know, how little you know

I only eat to fill me up

I only sleep to rest

I need a love just like you gave

I haven't found it yet, found it yet

See where I am is where I'm wanting to be,

I know what I need, know what I need

And there are many different places to see

I know how to dream, know how to dream

Still there's a wound and I'm moving slow

Though it don't show, though it don't show

I've got a hole where nothing grows,

How little you know little you know

I only eat to fill me up

I only sleep to rest

I need a love just like you gave

I haven't found it yet, found it yet

Maybe we'd marry and we'd work it out fine,

In some other time, some other time

And we are happy when I'm walking that line,

It's all in my mind, all in my mind

I paint the ceiling so that nobody knows

I cover it slow, cover it slow

It's like you've never even met me before,

How little I show, little I show

I guess the song is about someone who is feeling incomplete after had a break-up. yeah, sedih pemirsa. Saya juga punya lagu yang memiliki substansi yang tidak jauh beda dengan lagu diatas. Noah and The Whale - Our Window, atau Isbells - Time's Ticking. Lagunya agak-agak NYESSS. Lebih NYESSS lagi saat didengarkan ketika dini hari pas lagi gak bisa tidur. Jadi kalo lagi gak bisa tidur mending kita baca surah-surah pendek aja ya pemirsa. Oke, bismillah...

Selain The Paper Kites, I have some recommended band/singer to tell to you. 

- Aqualung

- The Good China

- Sun Kill Moon

- Eels

- Local Natives

- Six Organs of Admittance

- Woodpigeon

- The Boy Who Trapped The Sun

- The Narrative

- Oh Mercy

- Gregory and The Hawk

- Art of Fighting

- Blind Pilots

- Marble Sounds

- Rosie and Me

- Trent Dabbs

- The Honey Trees

- Low Roar

- Moddi

- Fossil Collective

- Keaton Henson

- Snowmine

- Kodaline

- Letters and Lights

- Right Away, Great Captain

- Telekinesis

Okay, okay. Sebelum kalian semua berfikir 'ih sedih-sedihnya lagunya Nicha..' atau 'ini Nicha mellow nya anaknya..' atau lagi 'ndak salah kalau Nicha suka duduk sendiri di pojokan..' you better throw those kind of thoughts out of your mind ! Instead of 'lagu mellow', saya lebih suka menyebutnya lagu keren, karena suara penyanyinya yang memang keren dan liriknya yang magical. They're still not-mewek-able-songs i got in my playlist. So you guys who want to sing along with happy mellodies within, here are some suggestions :

- Bombay Bicycle Club

- The Postelles

- Geographer

- Foster The People

- Owl Eyes

- Oh Dear Vegas

- The Postmarks

- Midi Matilda

- Imperial Teen

- The Zolas

- Wake Owl

- Atlas Genius

- The Chevin

- Said The Whale

- Ambulance LTD

Last but not least, one of my happy song is... Ade Basuki - Bertarunglah Dragon Ball.

Sebenarnya masih banyak sih lagu-lagu keren yang saya tau tapi gak saya simpan di playlist. Yah bukan berarti karena saya gak punya lagunya jadi saya otomatis gak tau atau gak hapal. Banyaaak banget lagu yang saya hapal diluar kepala tapi kenyataannya di handphone saya gak punya lagunya.Yah, sama kayak cinta. Bukan berarti karena kita gak pernah nyebut-nyebut orangnya, lantas orang itu gak ada dalam pikiran kita atau kita gak tau tentang orang itu. hahahahaahhahahahahaha *ketawasampegila.

Siapa tau masih butuh lagu-lagu lain, feel free to ask. :p